I know full well that given worthy stimulation of my breasts (as cisM now utterly passable transF) the 'milk' production will get greater and greater

 See my right boob, wet after an hour of breast pumping... The 'milk' I produce will not by this method + much breast-massage will not compete with that of a primiperous woman at her obstetric process, but I am 77yoa, and cis-male... 'wet tits' after pumping always always affirm what I want for myself, a 'physics' that to date cannot of my body (so desirously!) menstruate or impregnate, but which with great and disciplined effort produce-- like a mist on morrows after a 'one night stand' with a Love on a rainy darkness-- WET tits-- especially the right one.

I know that the pumping+massage does something psychophysiological: I know that the years of ingesting estrogen&progesterone pills too predisposes the 'milk coming out' -- always feeling sweet and making me 'soft' all over. I know, the-more, that in my present existential moment as 'Lesbian by-Loveer-Ghosted' this feeling so deep so wholesome in entirety is helping me heal from this jilt, the latest jilt, which in all by fact so-evident enlarges my boobs-- to the happy event of lactation.

I know, the more, the more, the more, that I need breast stimulation of the massaging and pumping sort more often-- several times a day-- and in a 'womanizing way' will become one with womanly resilience, whose love will go deep and tantric and mindful.

Finally, I know full well that given worthy stimulation of my breasts (as cisM now utterly passable transF) the 'milk' production will get greater and greater-- that I as Lesbian may nurse a woman as well and so archetypally 'queer' when and as she nurses me!!!!!