Journal-Note 2 Nancy NoWhere in Proximity, Now Memory Shapes Me Inward-Mindfully, HI, FlowerFluffy PrairieWildRose I Chose and from which Do Not Go ;-)

 Cooler, the Climate cools sw:

I have, Nancy, the felt imperative to get-out, get-up-go: I-am I-compel-myself to hike, to go down by the River along WaterFront Park, a comfortably sylvan, but not to the term-to-use forested glen, and do the circumambulation completely around, and maybe then up low Shelby Street to near Liberty and Jackson Streets, where's a 24hour, 24X7 MacDonalds, a-there-to get black coffee... say 5-6 miles all around aerobic walk.

As studying how to feminize on www.steppingoutsecrets.com/FeminizationLab/YouTube[generally], I am doing the kinds of exercises that I suppose women-the-more do, as guy-calisthenics I have known rather make 'musclemen' (who could be better at say wrestling boxing football games). More to this end report, I am getting instructed online for 'pi.late.es' pilates. A major thust looms to exercise in ways best suited for   'gurls' [boys will be gurls, know ye not?]

'School' starts Fall Semester ULouisville on the 27th, 15 days from now. I shall take 'social epidemiology' a public health discipline that greatly complements my undergrad sociology (one of two majors, the other being English 2 full majors to a  BS/BA double). I had digital errancy taking the summer course into a doldrum a boredom especially with the then-prevailing 'heat dome'  too icky for me to out-foray...

Yes NHz my thoughts are ever for Thee... I regard what I must do to give-peace-to-you a matter of NOT overmessaging, versus the near-not-possible for me to NOT message at-all. 'Time heals all wounds;' your gut-puncture is YES not very well beyond the scab-stage, but for all my recogntion that you are as pal IFF ok PERFECT, I do get profound peace myself in the imagination that you get/give love to Another, pray-tell a man Blak of colour, with some hope Thine for matrimony to Him. O MY PEACE IS NEAR THE PLACE WHERE ONCE I TOO HOPED- AT END-ERA OF BEDBUGS [gone from my place just about the time you dropped me ;-) ] THAT IS TO SEE-U-4-REAL 2REVERE U].

To the end of your pacification apart separate from me, I suppose only that I must regard my 'flame4U' as  a MEMORY NOURISHING MY SOUL, a past-tense still in my-mind Real Presence whose 'glow' will near-never extinguish. You gave me joy and SEEDS and still out-come milk mammary miracle and a mandate for at least NOW to consider you, the 'center of my solar system around which all my planataries still revolve,'  as just-about too HOLY on whom to intrude. This great struggle for a lover that my will be the most devoted  ever for you to have 'let in' barely at all to 'let down' into you... No my RULE now has to be NOT TO BOTHER YOU [as by direct messaging I as unknowing guess].

You:AvatarStarMySunshine, it need not be more you-to-me than the sweet memory that once you befriended me, from which acceptance we in great-seeming-commonality LIKED, a liking which as characteristic for my habits WILL NEVER GO AWAY... the not-gone-away*you-stay

NEVERTHELESS IN ME WILL STAY AND STAY ;-) WON'T EASILY ME-WARD GO-AWAY.