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  Estradiol   is my sacrament--  but in ways that are not commonly discussed: Of course, I love the bodily changes that a steady dosage (2Xmy 2mg per diem)(now 6X2mg per diem); my breasts happily fill a D-cup, and I look convincingly 'clefted' in a bra...My face's look is convincingly female, and my thighs and hips do also look fem... As well, as I have reported here and elsewhere, my boobs strain to be 'milked' and successfully so, at that, increasingly. But estradiol (a strong estrogen) for me has the most enduring  and happy effect as "psychotropic"-- a euphoric soul-lift to me, and making me resilient as women can be with almost any stress/trauma; this girl-chemical in me has made for the most enduring joy of my life... The question arises: but are you really  by this HRT made into a woman ? I do feel immensely happy yes happier by immersion in all things Fem-- I only enjoy female company-- am 'Lesbian' in love orientation-- and 'gross out...

 See my right boob, wet after an hour of breast pumping... The 'milk' I produce will not by this method + much breast-massage will not compete with that of a primiperous woman at her obstetric process, but I am 77yoa, and cis-male... 'wet tits' after pumping always always affirm what I want for myself, a 'physics' that to date cannot of my body (so desirously!) menstruate or impregnate, but which with great and disciplined effort produce-- like a mist on morrows after a 'one night stand' with a Love on a rainy darkness-- WET tits-- especially the right one. I know that the pumping+massage does something psychophysiological: I know that the years of ingesting estrogen&progesterone pills too predisposes the 'milk coming out' -- always feeling sweet and making me 'soft' all over. I know, the-more, that in my present existential moment as 'Lesbian by-Loveer-Ghosted' this feeling so deep so wholesome in entirety is helping me heal ...