... love the womanliness' 'milk of kindness' that the 'girl chemicals' especially estradiol-estrogen give me, and my body shaped and shaping in the direction as a 'wannabe gurl'....

 


Estradiol is my sacrament-- but in ways that are not commonly discussed:

Of course, I love the bodily changes that a steady dosage (2Xmy 2mg per diem)(now 6X2mg per diem); my breasts happily fill a D-cup, and I look convincingly 'clefted' in a bra...My face's look is convincingly female, and my thighs and hips do also look fem... As well, as I have reported here and elsewhere, my boobs strain to be 'milked' and successfully so, at that, increasingly.

But estradiol (a strong estrogen) for me has the most enduring  and happy effect as "psychotropic"-- a euphoric soul-lift to me, and making me resilient as women can be with almost any stress/trauma; this girl-chemical in me has made for the most enduring joy of my life...

The question arises: but are you really by this HRT made into a woman? I do feel immensely happy yes happier by immersion in all things Fem-- I only enjoy female company-- am 'Lesbian' in love orientation-- and 'gross out' by anything like male clothing-- yet in ways that 'come out' as occasional boldness and assertion, I have a blip of manly 'showing'... SUCH THAT  AND ALMOST ENTIRELY IN MIND AM WOMANLY AND EXEEEDINGLY HAPPY IN THAT ABIDING STATUS.

BTW, massaging my breasts including 'pumping' them has the salutary effect of making for an all-over soft glow AND for (especially 'prepared' cis-males) MUCH RECOMMENDED-- the 'blues,' agitation, fretting, all dissipate-- as much as by meditation it goes with me-- to be therapy.  Especially I like to 'track' my cognition during this yes 'spiritual' cuddling process seems to be a 'mental health' which as well abetted by known ways of invoking cognition for mental healing 'does work ably for catharsis.'

In short, I love the womanliness' 'milk of kindness' that the 'girl chemicals' especially estradiol-estrogen give me, and my body shaped and shaping in the direction as a 'wannabe gurl'....

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