Letter to M'LoveProfoundest, NHz-M'MostlyOnly, at my Bedtime {just about, without O Nancy.z I but Long4Thee ;-) }

EDST now, twenty till pm 9; I think despite my dwindling frets of a-botherin' U, and now bed-beckoning I in prayer-terms give Thee Thanx O Thanx Nancy I after some 125 mornings&evenings deeped in soul-suffering no NancyThenJustSilenceAmenGhostlyThen my torture undying then/now/ever 4U ;-) ...

You 'did not know what to say' to me, as--NearIdesOfMarchCaesar!!!!...-- asking that you cuck me, this year March; in the march that followed I CANNOT GIVE U WORDS, Nancy, to how much but for Thee I suffered-- only to say that never did matter-- I needed but to heed that the being-made-uncomfortable for which you went-separate by CATEGORICAL-IMPERATIVE must let that 'separation' pierce-me stab-in-heart, for...

then I become, rather in a fooly 'absentia,' TheONE you can pacify; your Pax Tecum as religious Catholic-types wish the Jeez'ed Believers--not me now after much-punishment by virtually all Christian (but now not Unitarian) churches WILL STILL 2SPITE'M make U my Job1, Job1 over any else matter my life now must have...O My Avatar, My Star of sunrises and sunsets as 4MeMyBest <how long TheBest? Exceeding-long seems like, seems like I shall when dying have all last thoughts but for another ManicDlikeMe @ StLouisMissouri; does that not seem TOTALLY SETTLED CONCLUSION, FluffyNancyFlowerWildFlowerRosaArkansana?... >

You know, a good word for my passion4U (does not this seem now, 'Socialite'? as very beautiful?) is indeed as conveyed emailed to you naught but the sense-luv-tru4U Compersion? What about me? Why are my luv-eggs in my 'basket' abidingly just a content:NHz? Nancy! I am just not very interested in aught but being utterly monogamous 2U; being 'untrue' feels awful, even at the level of dating/'wooing' Other cis-women (and certainly neverever would that be for cisM OR transF...) Does this yen but to be tru2U still seem 'offensive'? Don't overthink my fidelity, so close to engrained as that of-me is characterological, no no don't overthink my only me, forever I shall be fully satisfied if in my love 4U can abide in the thought that you are pleasured, that I am the lover who but wants you-pleasured, in which case I can tag-along, vicarious in my love 4AvatarFarFarButM'Star,

PLEASE LEMME BE BUT ONLY DEVOTED-THUS TO THEE ;-)


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