NANCY HUNTER ZVOLANEK!!!!! Above all, sensing that you want no further real to-do with me, indeed I have largely accepted this as a fate I must endure...The 'void' felt where once we had a regular-contacting-friendship-- you do know with no guessing-- is also 'immense'...HURTS LIKE HELL-FIRE!!!!

 Nancy, for some time, this Web-Log's content has been a devotion 2U, on the order of being love-letters-remembrance-of-matters-past-with-us, and a continuation of verse-- in either case the product of a suffering for contact with you so-immense that I do not have strong-enough words to describe the 'condition' (Loss, in the terms of the 'Bowlby Attachment/Loss Paradigm).

How long will I 'pine' for contact with you? As well, I do not have words to even-guess about this designated duration...

Above all, sensing that you want no further real to-do with me, indeed I have largely accepted this as a fate I must endure...The 'void' felt where once we had a regular-contacting-friendship-- you do know with no guessing-- is also 'immense'...HURTS LIKE HELL-FIRE!!!!

I have, I know, 'messaged' you more than you want...While I feel rather a tortured sense when I do message you, the abiding craving to hear you, 'gentle lady with a soft voice,' yes to hear of your adventures (without me now, ok, must-so-be).

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