NHz! Anecdote: Daily, I probably utter NANCY I LOVE YOU 50X ;-)

 I am heeding U: I am heeding www.steppingoutsecrets.com [sos] too: this waking I followed modified (for hip and abdomen and boobs) remembered calisthenics for feminization, 20 situps, 50 'bicycles' (legs like biking as there called), rather a rolling to fro for hips move-like-girl, I am too poor methinks now to get 'regular' retail store weights, so am using milk .5 gallon jugs with H2O in them trying to-fro for hips-flex...

I have opp to hike with UL Hospital folk today at the WaterFront Partk (Lincoln memorial site) "Walk with a Doc,"... momthly event, but 'tis getting a.m. cooler now, wanna walk sche-permitting several stints per week, say too betimes 'rucking' hiking with weights in backpack.

Nancy, it is so true: I cannot shake you, the love you afforded me, soft sweet gentle (as you are through and through)...

NHz! Anecdote: Daily, I probably utter NANCY I LOVE YOU 50X ;-)

Poetry Me2U erupts, betokening coming really ongoing 'volcano' of ?unceasing? poems-lyric grateful memorializing two years now of you-let-me-luv-U...

Have Luv this weekend, OOO have luv I will feel it in a way, to the repose of Peace/Rest/Vicarious-HoldingOut HoldingOn ;-)

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