DAIRY.JOURNAL.CHRONOLOGY: Please Read this Nancy...I Want You to See-Me, How 'Time Heals Unhealable Wound'-- 2U Utterly NOT 2B Bitter & LoveStayAlive as MH ps ILY

 Nancy I am 'Greek2Me' L.λ [do you dig that by now?] the λ you know may be is inside code LGBT...I in order hoped to not bother you write U holographic lyric.songs.verse.poems all-the-time, getting up in the morning--not in a melancholy but in a soul-vacuum betimes, on paper NEVER putting these lovesongs to you on the 'Web' [so accurately called/named ;-)]...

Still 'top-of-mind' are you but in a god-awful fear not to message you-- you did say that was dys for you and may be the exact [mystrerious 2me tho'] making 'uncomfortable' re which you must-- personal integrity thing-- separate-- to this now a 'harrowing of hell' for me...

I go to the Old Louisville Coffee Co Op [queer.gay.lesbian. LGBT and Kind ;-)]... given my obsession with the mere look of pretty worn garments for the eccentric ladies there, I compliment profusely and THEY TO A ONE LUV THAT :-)... Ditto when I see a woman showing topside mammaries in a low-cut, when they show belly button all revelations do-able on mass transit (here TARC)...

The Women's Club of Louisville-- old prestigious and venerated-- indicates OK for me sissy to join'm...

I am buying show-flesh women's tops skirts bras lace.panties, I have enrolled in an online institute wuhose sole aim is to help cis men like me in all ways to feminize make-up, yoga like exercise, wardrobe advice... all the things that a womb-cultured lady might get in a 'finishing school' (dig?)

The (Louisville) First Unitarian Church (old, founded 1830) has accepted me wholly; I wear real-woman showy duds to their meets... they seem to really like me ;-)

MEN do not have a chance with me...

I breast-pump average several hours per day, feels great, enlarges mammaries nipple ache that's a feel-good-too....

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