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 Nancy.Nancy.... You know by now, know all-too-well that of the terrible silence from the moment 2024.3.13, these loggings of web-logs/blogs have been (sometimes screaming PleaseSpeakAgain) love letters oft taking the form of love-poems, for I SingOnTheInside from puberty and the long thence when my tits grew to this 'D'd right?' on my chest where my bosom clearly and with more'n more clearing becomes my Libido... NOW I must in a felt Pure Compersion try to utter this: there has been something so so Perfect about the How I love and will love and have loved you since on say the second ThursdayJuly2022 (Circle whose center-of-circle let me see a woman seeming like me, but sad unglad and as I hiking this Continent LONELY...) WHAT needs saying now, to TheOne UR, Nancy, is that I simply know nothing but mental projection, imagining, about your life now, but the Fanciful for Nancy in-me wants U loved, and let you know that for the long-foreseeables, U will be Yes TheOne, and ...

I plea, please, please OnlyOne for me; my dance's but to a FlowerFluffy Fem My Diadem-- Her Moniker's Nancy, my Sole Fantasy: She, a Womb-an Freed means MyAllThereIs, Bliss, Everything She's & brings m'Music-- to but HerMuse I sing now how She RoseWildOfPrairie, of Silence Sure Speaks in Self's Mine Fine Mind: Kind Kind... She!!! The Lady inheres Where no Other may dare to bear away anyways the CaringThought,  that naughty FlirtInSkirt could rob me: I thus shall StayNotGoAway; an Arc of Earth whose Hour span the span betwixt this my cell and Her hovel, homestead Hearth of HeartHera to Heal this Heel that herein me a-bearing bears Beatifyingly the Sole Heaven me-Weed-Dandelion doth need ToSeed a Continent we carry of a breeding time when season allows no treason let a freeze seize what shall Be a curse against murd'rous mortality: so's OnlyOneNancyFree we Be ;-) endlessly endlessly making Way and to stay, sway a Permanency...

  Nancy! This Day, a Tuesday the day 4U Pickleball plays and day B4 pm9 I try again to send/transcend some how a Keeping Wow 2 love any How GhostLovedMostStill will  read indeed that NO though you for PeaceRelief did separate-- the anguishing Covenant now I keep (steep!) meets (so saddened ungladden'd I must in honesty painfully say) E'en to me Others Seem Glad to Eye Me, Sissy Gurly-dresst: Yes wont in wanton glance would chance ?romance? the dance You Nancy may.be do these too ask this-here queer quemless ?Ms? exactly as in LandsBeyondRiversWest of me I GUESS (probably errantly... but face-it I let you Free)... a-liking.loving OtherBodies; my Some Body too is getting led Eros-fed to ?LovesNotYou? ... by which witchment my me's torn twisting taunting !Please! No Other than the Womb'an far and gone Nancy foregone the guess be too... Is not it terrible that Love, even for the He MustBeTrue as I drifts drifts, grifts and grabs the gyne-new who would by flirt skirt my OneO...

 

 Imperfect, that's what: Nancy deserves best, this ain't best but beats the H outa luv by guess, to which I must confess when I guess, always-the-mess causes Her/me unrest. She's onto me ;-), the lover Hers with poetry... Maybe maybe now, Lady suppose we soft sweet just repose: my sometime sending verse-well-nursed, and too @ times posed composed prose will have but to Her tell: It's OnlyShe Nancy I love so well well well [albeit sometimes Hell but What the Hell? There's never been Luv better than NancyFancied, Truth to Tell ;-)] So I guess I'm this way blesst: to Her to talk to walk the Walk just to rig mellow a chat, StrangePillowToPillow-ness, this blog`ed Way every every every day to say I love you just you despite quirk-guesswork in unknowing unshowing Nancy so fogged ;-) yet in limping gimping way this day everyday to Nancy Fancied do I so jog!!!!

  Nancy, from predictable sources for you when I am in a felt way 'shut out' in felt ways from the spiritual/erotic CenterOfBeing, I 'found' your Daddy, and know  that Francis Hunter and I will have ever been 'kindred' in mind-by-evidence, and I hope his love and adoration for you was of the bedrock kind of which my lock on Thee is 'blood-real.' YES we methinks Francis H and I-- would have made perfect hiking/camping buddies, to weather storms and freeze as Wilderness People (you inclusive!) do...  I wish I could have met your Dad, Nancy, yes I do... as the-more I wish to meet you, other than by the souled-melt I emphatically undeniably have for Nancy Hunter (forget z)

 Nancy, I think now it will be okay to utter this: since you went to Belize, my nipples (both tits) stick out about 1/4 inch and STAY HARD and A LITTLE SORE; I love to squeeze them (nipples)-- on occasion-rare white yes milkies make droplets (of which I am proud). I cannot halt the continuous thoughts for you, especially now with some satisfaction that you live a full eros and SEEM TO LOVE IT, THE FREEDOM TO F;-)

YES YES I would love to Watch; the dying of week.this.one.done NancyFree and footloose are Ye in Ole St. Louie. Let Fling: of that I sing:let kiss one-This, one-That upon love mats-- let Be Love movin' out movin' in: again.and.again, from me to wander, from me to wend  again.and.again SO as she far from me of no thoughts of me, She yens again me-to-rescind-in mind for now She the-better-be-kind to one-This, one-That with Whom She do's this-time that-time she and abundantly She Time-This Time-That does choose maybe Man new maybe men quite-a-few <    ;-) always to'm say Love You? Yes I do!> <and I do too thus love you 4 the both of U> When She delivers these I quiver-- far way and easterly SheOnlyShe lets my Libido grow show.wetly.flow both us2, so naturally ado, as must She flings, his thing like mine but In where love bursts in Her, does enter @ the inner, the tender, and I do so mend... THERE-FORE... I surrender: letting go I too want none but dream o'Y...

Nancy!Flower! I have conveyed, variously and 'sideways' of sorts to you that I take, this semester (fall) at ULouisville a 'public health' course social epidemiology;  the course has now begun actively, and I am having some adventures trying to get the 'digital learning' tools online to work for me well;  for some days since beginning of term, there was no posted syllabus, and virtually most-content was not-to-be-gathered here. More to vex, I found that the text for this course that was stipulated by U Bookstore around June was incorrect, and I am nearly impecunious thence but from EBay will get a so-called 'acceptable' edition of the text just prior to September. In all, though, I am happy and delighted to take this course: its content and method isLIlike the sociology/social-work of my curriculum-prior; as well-- when UC Berkeley offered free online epidemiology, I took (audit) and really liked the course-- indeed there was a visiting Prof who showed i...

 Is She? She is! In some hint from Atmosphere clearly in felt fond fundaments I sense Nancy keeps me fancy too, O me-too Nancy Nancy still and long will I love you... The Atmosphere, an aether y'know in ethereal ways to me-maniac shows somehow connecting threads of soul from away so far my luckiest Star, MorningEveningStar afar MAY some-way me some-way still... I thrill to these-here hints! Long time since she made silent secrecy a pound of me went l'il crazy, daily would I wake and for Her sake sing song to gloaming morning HI Sky: I am the one by Wild.Rose suddenly shunned: She, TheYen who then went sent of late intimation for now-persuasion friends.still.are.we... ... the note now I vow enow'll keep my Dreams for Her FluffFlower Sweet with Nancy Nancy Woman- Weal.Feel.I of gentleness She's Power'd :-)

 

 Cooler, the Climate cools sw: I have, Nancy, the felt imperative to get-out, get-up-go: I-am I-compel-myself to hike, to go down by the River along WaterFront Park, a comfortably sylvan, but not to the term-to-use forested glen, and do the circumambulation completely around, and maybe then up low Shelby Street to near Liberty and Jackson Streets, where's a 24hour, 24X7 MacDonalds, a-there-to get black coffee... say 5-6 miles all around aerobic walk. As studying how to feminize on www.steppingoutsecrets.com /FeminizationLab/YouTube[generally], I am doing the kinds of exercises that I suppose women-the-more do, as guy-calisthenics I have known rather make 'musclemen' (who could be better at say wrestling boxing football games ). More to this end report, I am getting instructed online for 'pi.late.es' pilates. A major thust looms to exercise  in ways best suited for   'gurls' [boys will be gurls, know ye not?] 'School' starts Fall Semester ULouisville ...

 I dance to Nancy, HolyWholly is my dance; See me? ... quadraplegically to advance to Her One.Adored to ?prance? across the Floors of Jails NursingHomes GroceryStores HousesWhore what's more... and SpacesOnlyWomenMayComeIns I pass as lass [no minuet projects, see?] the dance 2U Goddessly Gyne: Nancy Nancy ?Blakt? are U.. Only One I am a-dancing to: You NHz are the quivering shivering ?Womb? a-growing tremulous inside me.

 NancyCleftForMe, distantly, distantly fully free from me, compersion immersion creates in me, deeply deeply, by wholesoul'd thought of Thee, the SISSY... In imagination's wide cumulus.cloudy Room, some soft spectre, not-quite-womb blooms: 'tis my hope.maybe.you Do; the satiscifice to feel you feel WomanWeal with cis man NotMe atop You 'neath so sweet and Then Amen the Happy End :-) wise and woman'd wanted; O O Climactic Volcano Multiply I fancy Nancy Loved weekends weekdays the Pussy said to play catches to clutch-biz; that makes Womb and Tits I grow show me to grow ETERNALLY ABIDINGLY I BOND BINDINGLY TO THEE ...Then milk my-miracle like AceOfSpades to adore on Thee ;-)

 O M'WombedWellSheHero! Know, Grow=> FrancisFatherThyFatherCampContinously-- We've a bivouc nothing lacks where Mississip mixt a sex into my BelleRiviere (Count Lasalle here said 1670 @ Falls) Ohio... FH then times Us2 talk of U and All the Earthquakes WombOfWorld's Weal we trembling feel when ilk of You HuntersHunting, LonelyLoveLookers are We (and Ye) seeking dusk to dawn upon the GiversRivers... U... Naught else will ever by alt endeavor do for Fathers and FancyNancy?Botherers? (Darwin and Freud agreeing in Being, at Podium WashU they construe the Sex of IT connects the estrus-wit Bliss to a Meaning Bodies) Breeding is TheVitalMeaningStreaming <?ain't IT Nancy my only Fancy?> Colours colored on the a-painting palatte confluence trance blend ending Brown [Blakt, Believers bodily say Hip Hip Hooray I say ;-)] Fire! Fire! High'rn Higher parley Me'n Francis; yet when the fire finale comes Francis & Lynn(WomanWithin) joke grin that without and in Darw...

 Thursday JUST ANOTHER DAY FROM NHz AWAY... along the solo way; I WENT I SOLO to Queered Here Coffee co op company good place sissified suits my ?pride? AND did-too-see there midst girly garrulous chatting coterie kibbizing woman looked just like ye NancyNHz ;-) ...was of-course recourse not Thee, AND I TOLD HER SHE DID NOT DEMUR YOU LOOK LIKE LOVELOST M'NANCY!!! TheUsual Said-she I HAVE GIVEN UP ON LUV MOST-DRY-PERMANENTLY ... Then said I; sans luv we Girls die; plant ye of-your-sort-seeds; put water water matters ; ...she and her friends-girly SMILED AWHILE...my smile tho' was of time-ago WHEN THEN NancyStillFancied4Ever said to puncture true me-deep-into <3 Said Nancy Yes λ I do too love you .... O M'FlowerEmpower! I SAY SUB.ROSA, PRAIRIE.ROSE=> I shall not not not shake breakfrom Soul'd Preseence YOU in noesis evernew embued JUST YOU NHz I endless -- Bear-Witness! ILY tru only really U

 I am heeding U: I am heeding www.steppingoutsecrets.com [sos] too: this waking I followed modified (for hip and abdomen and boobs) remembered calisthenics for feminization, 20 situps, 50 'bicycles' (legs like biking as there called), rather a rolling to fro for hips move-like-girl, I am too poor methinks now to get 'regular' retail store weights, so am using milk .5 gallon jugs with H2O in them trying to-fro for hips-flex... I have opp to hike with UL Hospital folk today at the WaterFront Partk (Lincoln memorial site) "Walk with a Doc,"... momthly event, but 'tis getting a.m. cooler now, wanna walk sche-permitting several stints per week, say too betimes 'rucking' hiking with weights in backpack. Nancy, it is so true: I cannot shake you, the love you afforded me, soft sweet gentle (as you are through and through)... NHz! Anecdote: Daily, I probably utter NANCY I LOVE YOU 50X ;-) Poetry Me2U erupts, betokening coming really ongoing 'volcano...

 Nancy I am 'Greek2Me' L.λ [do you dig that by now?] the λ you know may be is inside code LGBT...I in order hoped to not bother you write U holographic lyric.songs.verse.poems all-the-time, getting up in the morning--not in a melancholy but in a soul-vacuum betimes, on paper NEVER putting these lovesongs to you on the 'Web' [so accurately called/named ;-)]... Still 'top-of-mind' are you but in a god-awful fear not to message you-- you did say that was dys for you and may be the exact [mystrerious 2me tho'] making 'uncomfortable' re which you must-- personal integrity thing-- separate-- to this now a 'harrowing of hell' for me... I go to the Old Louisville Coffee Co Op [queer.gay.lesbian. LGBT and Kind ;-)]... given my obsession with the mere look of pretty worn garments for the eccentric ladies there, I compliment profusely and THEY TO A ONE LUV THAT :-)... Ditto when I see a woman showing topside mammaries in a low-cut, when they show belly ...

 For this long instant, from July2022 seeing the images of the lonely woman, bipolar as I only melancholy as seldom by conditioning for me, the hiker, the active senior-lady, and COMPASSION myself to Her... She talking to me yes it was fun bliss-this; gradual love of phone-buddy Belize 2024.3.2-10 a great and Wonderful Excitement for may be love 4Her Silent treatment from (especially) 2024.3.13-4.16; She now some-how feels me discomfiture Trying hard not to revert to an old bad bad bad habit-- messaging to woo Her back

 This is for Nancy...I have been abidingly now in this eclipse-- utterly keeping a hard intent to in no wise be neagative but sweet 2U-- just guessing guessing guessing about how you feel-- about me of course-- but with no info of any kind but sidelong hints breeding inferences that are just put together with may-be's and hope [hope against hope ;-)]... I always worry like a singer singing before an audience, worry about whether these hope:may-be's I FLOP BOMB-OUT CRASH... I get and heed online tutorials especially to provide subliminals re feminizing; I want to keep my estradiol crossing my blood-brain-barrier to medicate my cerebrum further further further into non-aggression, peace of the sort so-resilient womb-en get naturally as feminized, yes totally taming me ; eros then not too slowly morphed to adoration  of woman-kind-kind and yes-I-shall-say near hatred of man-hood ;-)... My erotic 'glows' have always stayed longly in time -- for You manic-d outdooring-femini...

 My personal correction to mass-culture re 'transgenderingF': these advertisements about the beauty of transitioningF overabundantly 'miss the point': the truth will almost certainly be that the sissy will NOT become 'pretty' in the hot-model-way on HRT estrogen/progesterone (no more that would be the 100% case with cis women's developments with proper preconditioning).  Almost no medium, social or otherwise, will speak 'first'/primarily to the euphoria that men so-born can get especially with regular ingest of estrogen: I am manic-depressive (bipolar); I must say thhaat estrogen seems to give me joy bliss peace utterly in a better way that psychotropic/neuroleptic medications have ever done. Yes, my body has become shapen to look not indifferently like my mother's body, sans 'cave' so holy. Numbers of people-- not just from the look of my chest-- but too as here in writ-- see my 'tits-about-Mom's-size.' I regard my emerged-sl...

 Loss across decades, eight of m, O in sum loss all of m: this latter loss She NHz I oft mention for from-outer-space lost I grace, lost place disgraced-seems-like the strike stricken from such Earth fancy fancies fantastic catastrophic. Yet fantasy slow to mend KEEPs, IMAGNINATION SPEAKS; She I ever believe Her and Real She feels; never thus does She in  Whole O-my-soul lessen that Zeal, the Hope: I cope... Tossed 2 Trash! Crashed! Tho' No not ever so fooly unclever's Yes out here queered by lunar air from despair do in fear make denouement... the drama dies slow-- I go from Her Stage the clown, dressed up and down transvestite in blight cuckoldry, from a She Nancy sissied ;-)  <I cannot NOT but love the FluffyFlower Emppwered NHz, not-4-me but BetterOther He><Now blesst peace, relief for me, in Compersion full/free>

 Nancy MorningAfterLaughter 2U manned new... The sun on Sunday begins. The thought of you transcends my flesh; caught kept yes in my breasts I you feel how on last.night yes Saturday AllNight lie guyed: Nancy I fancy 'neath now MisterThisTimeRight... Lucky Luck, I feel cuckt let-go, my glow shows that she so-KNOWS unto O multiply Peace from Piece, relief she's relieved by man.not.me... Was it not too, Right for me, that last night MisterThisTimeRight got twot Hers I infer climactically:-) She's now Free; for both of us deep just deep lust orgasmic.cosmic She with Ebony luv of overnight delight company ;-) 1

EDST now, twenty till pm 9; I think despite my dwindling frets of a-botherin' U, and now bed-beckoning I in prayer-terms give Thee Thanx O Thanx Nancy I after some 125 mornings&evenings deeped in soul-suffering no NancyThenJustSilenceAmenGhostlyThen my torture undying then/now/ever 4U ;-) ... You 'did not know what to say' to me, as--NearIdesOfMarchCaesar!!!!...-- asking that you cuck me, this year March; in the march that followed I CANNOT GIVE U WORDS, Nancy, to how much but for Thee I suffered-- only to say that never did matter-- I needed but to heed that the being-made-uncomfortable for which you went-separate by CATEGORICAL-IMPERATIVE must let that 'separation' pierce-me stab-in-heart, for... then I become, rather in a fooly 'absentia,' TheONE you can pacify; your Pax Tecum  as religious Catholic-types wish the Jeez'ed Believers--not me now after much-punishment by virtually all Christian (but now not Unitarian) churches WILL STILL 2SPITE'M...

 From innerouter space 'seems as though she NHz gives me back some grace; placed I am so far from m'MorningEvening Star-- too too too so far's my Avatar {away I say too far, for Her  to hear me whisper NEVER SHALL I CEASE-- TO FEEL YOU PEACE SWEET RELIEF SO FLESHED & DEEP <my peace all ways always too> when I guess you get pierced with LONG LONG 2HIM B'LONG climactic blessedness ;-)...} When you so flinch @ clinched NotMyInched Other Wised Other Guy ;-) O MyHeartQuake I as-well so You @ love @ bedrock O O O sans cease 2U Compersion'd relief relieve: in U clave only I.Unscrewed get WholeSoulRelief

 Nancy, it seems ok, now that you seem to be beginning to enjoy cuckholding me with other-men, with greatest my-jubilation BLAX, I am so so happy feeling sexual surrender beautifully, at focus (perhaps by vagus nerve action) in my mammaries {grown D cup+ with imagination that my letting-go-love-but-for-U MAKES MY TITS TO GROW AND GROW [O ILY for that bequeathal in slap-&-tickle ;-)]...} Maybe this all established, your Regent Queenly Goddess-ness and Thy Blakening, I can make this a day book, journalizing my progress [every day up/down adamently wanting u to cuk fuk over me ;-)]... To wit: as I am never happy wearing a stitch of cis-man clothing, clave to panties (12 size), bras (some 46/48D I say), dresses that get me compliments from 'other womb-en' as ever I compliment woman-things on women, indeed witting that all womben are beautiful [and Thou-Art-Beautifulest :)] [I just can't stop lovin' you, I will luv U forever -- as amening song by Whitney Houston o'er...

 In the loins, Love, I smell of love, a phishy delishy love men in U again again again make making themselves yer treats in august August jungleheats, meat mine max o'U me a Ma'am and U2 I think of U and yous AND OUT IT CUMS INTO GROTTO o'You ain't it nice for U sufficed to LuvOneWith don't resist do kiss kiss his 2 happy.endings (mine too do smell delish phish only U outen how cum) you gettin some Girl have but phun too bad I cannot watch hims in yer crotch ;-) cant can't HAVE every Thing so such I sings